If I could do it over again.

If I could do it over again, I think I would do things a lot different.

NOW .. First and foremost, I'm perfectly happy with the wife and 2 kids, so I don't wanna hear about it!!!!! Second, it's a borderline miracle that I found a woman who can tolerate a person who is as retarded, demented, and about as far off the main stream style as a person is going to get. So for that I am thankful. In fact, it doesn't bother me to brag that I have the "coolest wife in the world"! And I'm not just saying that to get a hummer either! I've met me A LOT of wives over the years, and NO ONE compares to this one. She is .... "a diamond in the rough!!" (now THAT might get me a hummer!)

Now, that being said, and Me with my still obscure views on life, would have probably done "life" a lot differently. I think it would be so cool to just get an full size van and just cruise the country wandering around from place to place. You know, not a motorhome or anything, just a van that you could convert in the back with a bed, a TV, sink, fridge, stove.

I've read a few articles on people who do this. They just wander around the country and sight see their entire lives. They pick up odd jobs for a few weeks, then take a few months off, go wander somewhere else and do it again. And when you think about it, the little money that they make is still a lot more than they really need so they can spend most of the year just NOT working. They don't have a house payment, or house insurance, or property taxes, or a water bill, or cable bill, or an electric or heat bill. I mean when you get rid of all that shit, I think your money needs are next to none! Just some gas for the van, a little food here and there, maybe a little nest egg for some unexpected repairs and that's it!

If you did this for your life, you could probably take in every fascinating thing this country has to offer. No time limits, no schedule, no time clock to punch. Ahhhhhhhhhh the life!!! Spend a month in the Rocky Mountains in the spring, then head over to the west coast and travel all the way up to Washington state. Checking out the babes at the beach, sippin' on a Corona while the sun sets. No responsibilities or obligations to anyone. I think if there was a God, you would probably find Him on this journey at some point. In fact, I wouldn't rule out this lifestyle after the kids are all moved out and it's just Me and the Wife, assuming I can talk Her into it.

Did I ever mention that I often wonder if it would have been better had I grown up in the 60's with the "Woodstock" era? Yup, I think I was just born 20 years to late.


But back to reality, which is fairly abnormal as it is. I now have 2 weeks left before I am officially retired from working for the man. That's 8 actual working days, probably in the neighborhood of 90 hours. THAT'S IT! In just under 12 more days I will punch out from working for the man and start "my own" obscure journey in life, bucking the system my own way. No, I won't be traveling the country in a coverted van, but I'll be doing things just as odd in my own little patch of land that I call home. Did I mention I have the "coolest wife in the world?"

Now if you could excuse me, I think I hear a "hummer" calling me :)



Todays RBV: Mark 11:24 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.


Dear Lord, I don't need a million bucks or a big car. I just pray that if you are indeed real, then you need to "up the ante" a little bit on the proof side and get a little less reliant on the blind faith side. So my prayer is that you show Yourself to me today so I can once and for all, dismiss the doubts I have in your existence. Amen

SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW WITH THE SAME DOUBTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!