God's confusing.

You know, I've been thinking about God. (What a shock)

I always hear about how much God loves us and how much He wants Jesus to be our personal savior, and how much He wants to have a personal relationship with each and every one of us. And that's all fine and dandy but what I can't figure out is WHY He's got to be so damn mysterious about it.

I mean really, in 2000 years since His apparent death, there really has been NOTHING in the way of scientific or tangible proof that He's offered as evidence. Back in the day there was all kinds of stuff happening, but ever since then ....... pretty quiet, with the exception of occasional quacks who come along claiming 'this or that' only to be guilty of fraud and tax evasion and spend time in prison.

Let me explain it with a fictional story of my own. I have this very distant friend who wrote me letter saying how much He loves Me and misses Me and wants more than anything to get in touch with Me. All I have to do is search for Him and then it will be true. Strangely enough, I've NEVER met Him, but all that I've heard makes Me damn curious to get a hold of this guy. So I try and try, I've written letters, I've made phone calls, I've done google searches ... EVERYTHING I can think of to let this guy know that I want to get in touch with Him. But ... with no luck at all. With all the hype, it sure does appear that He really shows NO interest in getting in touch with me, for I have tried my damnest to get a hold of Him. Perhaps, just perhaps .. this "friend" of mine doesn't really exist at all. I guess it made me feel all warm and cozy thinking that there was a friend out there who cares for me so much, but when I really got down to searching Him out, I found out that He didn't exist.

I guess my point of all this is IF there is this magical God out there who desperatly wants Me to know Him ........ He sure doesn't seem to put forth much effort in trying to get to know Me. To put it bluntly .. 'With freinds like this ... who needs enemies?'. Seriously folks, if any REAL person out there was as distant as this apparent Jesus guy, I would have given up on Him a loooong time ago. But since this is our eternal damnation were talking about, well then I think I'll just just hold on to this notion of believing in something that makes NO sense. BULLSHIT!!!

I've said it before, and I'll say it again. I don't care about which denomination you are, or how often you go to church, or how long you've believed in God. I think it all boils down to a much simpiler and easier question. It either IS true .. or it's NOT true!!! That's IT!! That's all that really matters!! It either DOES exist, or it's all myth and fables and fabricated stories. And for Me, Myself, and I ... I gotta go with my logical, rational, intellegence and say NO! NO .. it makes no sense. NO .. it's just another mythical God in the long line of God's over the history of mankind. NO ... it's absurd that a God that wants a relationship with Me more than ANYTHING, has shown little if any effort to let Me know that He is indeed real!! NO .. when I really started snooping around with this 'Jesus' thing, it didn't magically become clear to Me about this person I'm suppose to worship. In fact .. quite the contrary.

So sorry folks, I will NOT go down the beaten path and just say that I'm a Christian because it's the right thing to do. I will not say that I believe in God because it makes Me a 'good' American. I will claim that I am agnostic. That is to say, "I don't know!". I don't know what the hell we are doing here. I don't know if there is a higher power. I don't know the answer and that IS my answer. I believe it takes a lot MORE intellegence to say "I don't know", than it does to say "I'm a Christian and I go to church EVERY Sunday", then go on your way thinking your better than Me for doing so. I truly believe that most of the Christians today are that way because of upbringing, but they've never got off their lazy asses to check out the facts and actually see if any of it made any sense. It's arrogance and ignorance, the American way, so to speak. How do I know this? Because I spent half my life living that way, unfortunatly. But now I know that it's OK to say ... "I don't know". Give it a shot! Get out of your premolded lifestyle and start poking around at some of the questions that you have. You just might come to a very different conclusion than what you were automatically taught to believe!!



Todays RBV: Todays Repulsive Bible Verse is the fact that IF ALL the RBV's in the past 100 or more blogs have NOT convinced you to questions the Bible for it's moral and ethical disgracefullness, then I don't think ANYTHING will.